For the past two weeks, I’ve been struggling with an extreme internal desire to tell the world how emotionally taxing the past 3 years of my life have been.
Some recent milestones are making me reflect:
I just crossed the 4 year anniversary of buying my bike, which marks the official start of my journey as a creator on the internet
I’m 6 months removed from leaving Corporate America and going all in on the endurance coaching business I brought to life along the way
My business is stable and I’m looking around thinking..
I wanted to create a new life for myself.
I was fucking terrified of doing it and doubted my ability to pull it off.
I did it anyway.
It actually worked.
Space To Think
I’m currently in Playa del Carmen, Mexico with my wife, Chels.
The trip is a joint Baby Moon and getaway to celebrate my 30th birthday.
It’s literally the first time since I started my creator journey that I have actually relaxed for more than 1 consecutive day.
That’s not a brag on hard work.
It’s a reflection of how head-down obsessed I’ve been bringing this ever-evolving dream to life.
I’ve been giving myself space to read, think, write and just let my mind process the wild ride my life has taken.
In an effort to not be a writing perfectionist, I’m sharing an entry from my notebook that I wrote today.
I posted this picture of my espresso-fueled writing set up and my writing coach, Dickie, rated it a 10/10.
Straight up 10/10 💯💯💯💯
— #Dickie Bush 🚢 (#@dickiebush)
3:56 PM • Mar 4, 2023
Why I’m Sharing This
to continue building in public
to teach my future kid about what it’s taken for me to create a truly meaningful life
because reading something like this, written by someone else, would have helped me immensely
I hope it helps you.
Everything below is copy/pasted
What Did It Mean For Me To Start Creating Online?
(I broke up the bullets into 5s for easier reading)
It meant…
listening to my heart
following my curiosity
talking publicly about my interests
sharing things that could be made fun of
risking humiliation
occasionally sounding like an idiot
being patient with my growth
trying things that may not work
committing to the process
playing a long term game
learning in front of other people
teaching those behind me
putting some relationships on pause
creating friendships on the internet
taking a lot of pictures
documenting most of what I did
living a more interesting life
admitting that I’m afraid of judgement
taking action in the face of fear
realizing most people aren’t even paying attention
investing in coaches and mentors
playing a different game than 99.99%+ of people
paying less attention to pro sports
understanding that I have what it takes
sticking to my plan when I was pressured not to
having faith in my intuition
accepting that I don’t need to know the outcome
leaning on Chels more times than I can count
building new expectations with the people around me
giving everything I had to create something that DID NOT EXIST
- RVD
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